I try to bring up my eating disorder as little as possible. To me, bringing up my ED is equivalent to telling people about a giant zit I had last week. It’s awkward, it’s embarrassing, and honestly, it’s kinda pointless – that zit is gone already, so what’s the point of bringing it up?
As time goes by, I’ve managed to convince myself that it really wasn’t a big deal. It was just a part of ‘growing up’. I don’t have a problem with eating anymore. I like working out and going to the gym. Food and weight maintenance is easy for me. On the daily, people tell me, “You’re so skinny.” “How are you so tiny?” And the more I believe what other people tell me, the more I worry that I’m selling a lie.
I don’t want to bury or minimize my ED, just as how I don’t want it to define me. This week is NEDA – national eating disorder month. This story is for all those who may not know this about me, but more importantly, it’s a reminder to myself – that a long time ago, it was really fucking hard.
About a month ago, I was watching some videos on Youtube and came across a few Japanese subscription box reviews.
I love cute things. I love Japanese characters. and I especially LOVE the idea of a monthly subscription box delivered right to my door filled with adorable goodies. I registered for two right away, one called Yumetwins and another called Kawaiibox.
Here’s my review of the two boxes I received in February.
At the beginning of my challenge to rid myself of social media for a month, I wanted to break free of the compulsion to check my phone on a near constant basis.
Even with all the apps gone, I still find myself looking at my phone every once in a while to see if I have received any new notifications. Even without Instagram, Facebook, and Snapchat, I find myself refreshing my email, facebook messenger, and even texts more often.
Recently when I turn on the news, I’m saddened by the headlines I read. Even though I’m Canadian, scary, un-precedented things are happening south of the border and it feels very close to home.
Americans look like Canadians, speak like Canadians, watch the same TV and buy the same stuff as Canadians. We share celebrities and popular travel destinations. We largely share the same ideals, values, and traditions.
The one month vegan challenge has come to an end. Here are my overall thoughts about eating vegan.
I loved alcohol more than I loved cat memes, useless adorable stickers, and finding out the item I’m buying at full price is actually 50% off. Confidant, ally, enabler, and friend – alcohol was a huge part of my life for the past decade.
It was not difficult for me to have 2-3 drinks a night for absolutely no reason whatsoever. With an actual celebratory occasion, that number often reached into the double digits. There have been MANY periods over the past few years when I’ve become worried about my own level of drinking – only to impose some arbitrary drinking restriction for a period of time before returning to normal.
You know when people say, “I could never go without beef/chicken/pork/fish.” at the first mention of vegetarianism? I used to be one of those people. I was so dependent on melt-off-the-bone pork rib soup, chicken wings, steak frites, and the like that I couldn’t imagine meals without them.
Since I’ve cut out meat from my diet. The actual maintenance is easier than I thought it would be. I understand now why vegans and vegetarians are able to stick to their diets for a very long time once they get started.
I read an interesting article (here) describing the 7 character flaws that everyone has. (No, not the seven deadly sins.) These flaws take control as our primary defense mechanism when we’re afraid, stressed, or anxious.
Also, why are there #$%^& eggs in everything?
Eggs are in crackers, chips, noodles, wafers. Basically anything carby and delicious – yup, eggs were used in their production. Avoiding eggs completely has been my biggest struggle so far.
In April of 2016, I was diagnosed officially with psoriasis. Having never previously heard of this disease, I have spent the past 8 months reading about it.
I’m blogging to provide a real-time resource to other psoriatic patients, and also to keep track of my own experimentation on what works. A large part of my diet/lifestyle changes in the past 6 months has been in effort to reduce my psoriasis.
To non-psoriatic patients, this may not interest you as much, but given that it’s a disease that can affect anyone at any age, it probably is affecting someone in your life right now. So I hope my posts will give you some beneficial information.
Here is my story: