I hope you have a good day.

Thank you for being there for me always. Thank you for understanding me without judging me. Thank you for listening so patiently and with your full attention. Thank you for wanting to see the good in me. Thank you for trying to convince me that I am not as bad of a person as I sometimes want to believe. Thank you for taking care of my heart. Thank you for asking me questions and for actually listening instead of immediately rushing to talk about yourself. Thank you for treating me with tenderness and kindness. Thank you for facing my anxieties and my worries with me, and holding my hand instead of turning away.  Thank you for asking me about my day. Thank you for telling me that you love me before I need to ask. Thank you for telling me that you miss me when we’re not together. Thank you for making me feel safe. Thank you for reassuring me that it’s ok to fall apart sometimes, because you’ll be there to pick up the pieces. Thank you for saying that you’ll always be there to chat, no matter how late it is and that I’ll never be unwelcome. Thank you for responding right away when I tell you I’m upset. Thank you for seeing me make mistakes, and worrying instead of criticizing.

Thank you for teaching me to treat others the way you’ve always treated me.


There is no more room for you here.

The whole concept of minimalism to me is that clutter detracts from my life. To reduce the number of items in my life to the bare necessities means that I can be more attentive to the things which I actually need and which bring me joy. In acknowledging that “yes, I have enough” I can practice gratitude and appreciation.


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The Year of Bravery.

Sorry for not updating for a while. I’m back now and I’m going to make writing more of a priority for myself.

I turned 28 last week. There are lots of things I’ve done that I’m happy about so far in my life, and I’ve accomplished things that make me proud of myself. Yet in other areas, I feel like I’m not where I need to be.

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Time to Getaway.

I have always known that I am my own worst critic.

There was an article online about talking to yourself the way you would talk to your friends, and it honestly gave me pause because I could never imagine talking to any friend the way I talk to myself. (I would be devastatingly alone in that case!) In fact, I wouldn’t talk to my worst enemy the way I talk to myself.

That realization made me notice just how harsh I can be on myself and how mean and unforgiving I am of my own mistakes.  Sometimes I wonder how other people’s inner dialogue sounds, because my own is not very pleasant at all.


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hi 2018

Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional. Say you’re running and you think, ‘Man, this hurts, I can’t take it anymore. The ‘hurt’ part is an unavoidable reality, but whether or not you can stand anymore is up to the runner himself.”

– Haruki Murakami, What I Talk About When I Talk About Running

Is my life just a collection of anecdotes featuring Murakami quotes? Maybe.

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Closing Doors.

There’s a tradition (O-souji) in Japan at the end of each year to do a big cleaning before each year ends. This tradition takes place both in the workplace, and at home.

2017 has been a year of big changes for me. There were a lot of ups and downs. A lot of tears. A lot of growth. In short, a lot of making hard decisions in hopes of a 2018 that would make me happy. There were mistakes I learned from. Mistakes I shouldn’t have made. Mistakes I might still be making.

Now that the new year is fast approaching, I’ve really come to the realization that I need to be brutally honest with myself and the people in my life.

Can I see them making me happy in 2018.

Can I see them supporting my dreams and goals in 2018.

Can I see them making me a priority in 2018.

Can I see them helping me become the best version of myself, spiritually and emotionally, in 2018.

If I cannot see people doing that for me in 2018. If the likelihood of them causing me hurt, wasting my time, or stunting my personal growth is high, then I should leave them in 2017.

Yes, I’m afraid of the short-term pain, but I hope after everything that has happened this year, I have learnt not to postpone present pain into the future. I want to start 2018 with a clean house – to throw out all of the (metaphorical) trash and start with a fresh slate, full of potential and opportunity.

As with Osouji, it’s easiest to clean house when you do it in one big swoop. When you pick up your old, ripped stuffed animal and are reminded of all the happy memories, understand that those memories are still yours – but that you no longer need the toy. When you realize you haven’t made a happy memory with that toy in years, what are you still doing with that baggage?

So my dear reader, here’s to the end of 2017 and to a better 2018.

I hope you make the cut.

Stop being a nice girl.

I have somehow found myself to be in the uncharted position where I (and the majority !!!) of my female friends are single. As such, a significant proportion of our conversations have now centered around how to ‘avoid assholes’ and what makes someone a good person, specifically, a good man.

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